Pinned

Each one reminds me of all the trouble I've ever been through

This one here is for each time I cried over stupid things I'd do

The red one on the left is deeper 'cause it represents

Every time I'd reminisce over all the time we spent

I made sure that one would hurt more so I'd learn how to let go

'Cause now the cool thing is 'in with the new, out with the old'

I'll prick myself again when I think of how you'll be making room

Forgetting all our memories for someone else's, and quite soon

Maybe I'll use a white one so I could feel a bit more pure

I'll drive the green one deepest for the envy I've endured

Pins and needles have become my only way to cope

I've wasted all of my white thread, and with it, all my hope

You don't love me.

So why do I love you?
I stood there with open arms.
You walked away as my heart sank.
I just don't understand.
All I tried to do was help you.
I tried to show you you're worth more than you think.
You bitch more than me.
And I still said I loved you.
You threw me away like garbage.
And yet I came back.
Call me insane... But you're fucking mental.

WIP

Where am I? There is but one light hanging above my head..
I want to turn it off but I just can't reach
I want to talk to you 'cause I just can't sleep
There's nothing I can do when you're not in my dreams...
Nothing I can do but scream
Your name is my... sickly sweet lullaby
I could never really tell what's pleasure or pain
Lookin' back on us, they're almost the same
In the end I know they both kept me sane
while playing your hide-and-seek game

***will be worked on***

more musical poetry

take me back in time
to the night
we spent underneath the stars
staring at the city lights
glistening on the horizon

take me back again
one day
I can only hope it happens
and I swear I'll never let you go
please don't make me go

obsession
depression
keep pressing on the issue
the screaming
and bleeding
seems to me like a melody
I want you
to stay with me
but I'll only see you in my dreams
so now I sleep
for eternity

untitled song

here I lie
waiting for the day
I die
words I'd never say
pushing out of my mouth
like the blood from my veins

where we sat
the place is haunted now
by the ghosts of our pasts
where they shall forever stay
plastic smiles glued to their faces

echo echo
are you following me
my eyes have started wandering
they're looking for you
cause they still love the things you'd do

wake up wake up
it's a brand new day
the sun is shining but the moon still mocks me
how I miss you
oh how I miss you already

it's hardly tomorrow and it's already passing
teenage hearts weren't built for lasting
were laughing
it's only funny cause it's true
I'm only laughing cause you're doing it too

ba-da ba-da
are you listening
my heart has yet to cease it's beating
it's calling to you
cause it still loves the things you'd do

wake up wake up
it's a brand new day
the sun shines bright but the moon still mocks me
how I miss you
oh how I miss you...

wake up wake up

Long Distance Letter

That name, Your name
Just doesn't sound the same
The less it's heard, The more it's said
Whispers screaming in my head
They tell me we're just better off
Alone... or dead?

Love and hate would circulate
Now slower than the rumors
Slower than the blood in my veins
Because my heart never stopped pounding
The sound is driving me insane

The sound of your tears falling
You deny it but I know they're there
You can try to hide it
Behind your killer stare
But I'm not scared

For the Love of My Life

When you hold my hand
it's hard to understand
why our love was meant to be
yet so far out of reach.

Maybe I'm just crazy
but I love the way you hold me,
it's almost like a dream.
How lovely it will be...

when we're holding hands
our toes buried in sand.
The sun almost out of sight
leads the full moon shining bright.

I guess I'll speak my mind
but the words are hard to find.
A world of words makes it hard to choose
so to put it simply, I love you.

7:50 AM

another sleepless night
of tossing and turning
of dreaming to be with you
to be in your arms
to be loved

when will these chains release me?
as I lay beneath the stars
I can't help but wonder
where I am
why I am
who are we...

Better Off Dead

Why am I so useless?
So broken down inside
Waiting for the greatest day
The day one of us dies

It's hardly even my time
And yours is running thin
But I can't shake the feeling
That I will soon cave in

Instead of trying to help me
You're pushing me away
Perhaps it's for the best
If today's my final day

But do not mourn the loss of me
Celebrate instead
I was but a teenager
And Hell, we're better off dead