Don't let go.

Devilish grin on your left shoulder.

Oh, what's one little spin?

Never thought you'd have this much fun...

Telling your tale like a hero.

 

Leaving everything you thought you loved.

Everything's a blur, but why should you care?

There go the brakes...

 

Give it all back to feel good again.

Oh Devil! Where am I now?

And you wouldn't even know...

Write a letter to your loved one

just a moment too late.

He won't say

"I love you."

till he's outside Heaven's gates.

Silly girl, are you blind?

"You're no love of mine."

And you wouldn't even know

if I hadn't told you so.

Now you call yourself a widow

when you weren't even married.

Asking for forgiveness to move on.

Silly girl, lift your head.

At this rate you'll soon be dead.

"A blessing."

...or a curse.

Trade your bed in for a hearse.

Silly girl, don't you know?

You're better off alone.

And you wouldn't even know

if I hadn't told you so.

Nightmare

Never thought a Demon could
Invade my heart and soul,
Ghosts of our past take our
Halves and try to make them whole,
Twitchy fingers, heavy breathing
Monsters we've become
At last, the sunlight bathes us
Remove the shame of being one
Eternal damnation

Closure

Close my mind and disagree; The
Love I once held dear to me; Is
Over "us" and under you; All too
Soon; If you only knew;
Uneasy hearts are looking for;
Reality in what you have; An
Everlasting nightmare

(to be titled)

When did "How are you?" turn into "How've you been?"
The record player skipped my favorite song again
Who do you blame- (Is it me or is it just you?)
-when they all sound the same?
"Like, oh my God! No way! Could it be true?"
No one ever saw it coming
No one but I could hear it coming

Up over the horizon
there's a fire burnin' down my home
Life's way of telling me that I just don't belong
I was safe from the day you came and took me in
All alone and on my own, here it comes again

Wrath, wrath, a wicked path
Brimming with adventure
Do you hear the wind calling?
Warning you of danger
It tells you to come and save me
God knows if you can hear me
I know if you won't listen then I'm gonna start screaming

Call me a bummer
It's a wonder you would call me at all
Where's my knight in shining armor standing strong and tall
I'm not a damsel is distress but I sure could use the help
Our past life together is turning into show-and-tell

Look and see, look and see
Our last kiss is a late night movie
Take my heart to love and my hand to hold
Lights out, fool around
Go home and let the credits roll

Pinned

Each one reminds me of all the trouble I've ever been through

This one here is for each time I cried over stupid things I'd do

The red one on the left is deeper 'cause it represents

Every time I'd reminisce over all the time we spent

I made sure that one would hurt more so I'd learn how to let go

'Cause now the cool thing is 'in with the new, out with the old'

I'll prick myself again when I think of how you'll be making room

Forgetting all our memories for someone else's, and quite soon

Maybe I'll use a white one so I could feel a bit more pure

I'll drive the green one deepest for the envy I've endured

Pins and needles have become my only way to cope

I've wasted all of my white thread, and with it, all my hope

You don't love me.

So why do I love you?
I stood there with open arms.
You walked away as my heart sank.
I just don't understand.
All I tried to do was help you.
I tried to show you you're worth more than you think.
You bitch more than me.
And I still said I loved you.
You threw me away like garbage.
And yet I came back.
Call me insane... But you're fucking mental.

WIP

Where am I? There is but one light hanging above my head..
I want to turn it off but I just can't reach
I want to talk to you 'cause I just can't sleep
There's nothing I can do when you're not in my dreams...
Nothing I can do but scream
Your name is my... sickly sweet lullaby
I could never really tell what's pleasure or pain
Lookin' back on us, they're almost the same
In the end I know they both kept me sane
while playing your hide-and-seek game

***will be worked on***

more musical poetry

take me back in time
to the night
we spent underneath the stars
staring at the city lights
glistening on the horizon

take me back again
one day
I can only hope it happens
and I swear I'll never let you go
please don't make me go

obsession
depression
keep pressing on the issue
the screaming
and bleeding
seems to me like a melody
I want you
to stay with me
but I'll only see you in my dreams
so now I sleep
for eternity

untitled song

here I lie
waiting for the day
I die
words I'd never say
pushing out of my mouth
like the blood from my veins

where we sat
the place is haunted now
by the ghosts of our pasts
where they shall forever stay
plastic smiles glued to their faces

echo echo
are you following me
my eyes have started wandering
they're looking for you
cause they still love the things you'd do

wake up wake up
it's a brand new day
the sun is shining but the moon still mocks me
how I miss you
oh how I miss you already

it's hardly tomorrow and it's already passing
teenage hearts weren't built for lasting
were laughing
it's only funny cause it's true
I'm only laughing cause you're doing it too

ba-da ba-da
are you listening
my heart has yet to cease it's beating
it's calling to you
cause it still loves the things you'd do

wake up wake up
it's a brand new day
the sun shines bright but the moon still mocks me
how I miss you
oh how I miss you...

wake up wake up

Long Distance Letter

That name, Your name
Just doesn't sound the same
The less it's heard, The more it's said
Whispers screaming in my head
They tell me we're just better off
Alone... or dead?

Love and hate would circulate
Now slower than the rumors
Slower than the blood in my veins
Because my heart never stopped pounding
The sound is driving me insane

The sound of your tears falling
You deny it but I know they're there
You can try to hide it
Behind your killer stare
But I'm not scared

For the Love of My Life

When you hold my hand
it's hard to understand
why our love was meant to be
yet so far out of reach.

Maybe I'm just crazy
but I love the way you hold me,
it's almost like a dream.
How lovely it will be...

when we're holding hands
our toes buried in sand.
The sun almost out of sight
leads the full moon shining bright.

I guess I'll speak my mind
but the words are hard to find.
A world of words makes it hard to choose
so to put it simply, I love you.

7:50 AM

another sleepless night
of tossing and turning
of dreaming to be with you
to be in your arms
to be loved

when will these chains release me?
as I lay beneath the stars
I can't help but wonder
where I am
why I am
who are we...

Better Off Dead

Why am I so useless?
So broken down inside
Waiting for the greatest day
The day one of us dies

It's hardly even my time
And yours is running thin
But I can't shake the feeling
That I will soon cave in

Instead of trying to help me
You're pushing me away
Perhaps it's for the best
If today's my final day

But do not mourn the loss of me
Celebrate instead
I was but a teenager
And Hell, we're better off dead

WordChallenge4-Galore

Run with me in drunken splendor
We'll counts the stars galore
Floating on an endless river
Until we are no more


Hold my hand
I've got a plan
If you've the will to listen


Carved in our fate
A great escape
By crashing waves of crimson

ANGST

Just life.
-the hell is that supposed to mean?
“That’s just the way it is.”
Fuck that shit.
I’m not going to live like everyone else.
Miserable.
That just ain’t me.
Don’t treat me like I’m everyone else.
“I know better.”
Better for you.
“Ingrate.”
Good.
I didn’t ask to be here.
You’ve got no one to blame but yourself.
Hope you’re happy.
You’ve created a monster.

WordChallenge3-Lupine

A lupine cry pierces the night
The full moon follows
As I dodge the trees
They’re trying to get me...
Branches turning into arms
Grabbing at my limbs
The moon mocks me
I will never be free
But there it stays
With it’s infinite field of stars

The Suitcase

Police men were gathering around a staircase at around noon. A suitcase was open on the floor various items were scattered about; each item numbered from 1-10. A textbook, a small black bag, a wallet, a small notebook, a thesaurus, and a package wrapped in birthday paper. Two of the four policemen left the building.


"What kind of guy would carry all this junk to the city and just leave it behind?" One cop by the name of Maxwell Winston asked as he examined the pile. His partner looked stupefied.


"We won't know who he is until we can open those books. The boys should be back soon with gloves. What makes you think he's from out of state, anyway?"


The other two cops were making their way back, one holding a small white box with a picture of blue rubber gloves on the side. Maxwell pointed to the side of the suitcase.


"It says 'Cali girls are better'." A tacky, brightly colored bumper sticker was plastered to the suitcase. "First instinct says to assume he's from California. Or at least been there."


Maxwell took a pair of gloves and started flipping through the small notebook. Every page was full of names, dates, and phone numbers, all of them of females. He then looked at the textbook. The outside cover seemed to have once had a title written in gold, but it was now scratched out. The inside covered "Advanced Anatomy". Out of the back of the book fell 5 photographs of different women. They looked to be about 18 or 19 years old. Each wore a different kind of outfit (If you could call them "outfits").


"What is this? It's like they ain't wearin' any clothes at all!"


Maxwell was hesitant to open the small black bag. Could it be? ...No, it can't... Five girls couldn't fit in a little trash bag... He untied it slowly. After undoing the first knot he felt this fear of finding a victim, or worse... bits of one. As Office Winston undid the last knot, he sighed. No body parts. Just dirty laundry. A few T-shirts and jeans.


Maxwell's fellow officer picked up the thesaurus and looked through it. Some pages were littered with post-it notes. "Damn, he took note of every synonym for 'girlfriend', 'love', 'relationship'... What's up with this guy? Sounds like a pimp to me."


"Hey, should we open the box?", asked the other cop. "It says, 'To Leon' on it." Maxwell wanted to, but it wasn't his job. "No," he sighed. "Let the boys at the lab take care of it."


There was one item left to examine. The wallet. Inside was a bank deposit for $229.51, a receipt for a dozen roses,  a speeding ticket with the fine scratched out, and a folded note. Maxwell began reading the note aloud. "Dear Paula, These past few weeks have been hard without you. I wish there was an easy way to say this, but I've been making my way around this loneliness. Goodbye, and thank you for the birthday gift. I'll open it when I have time."


"I guess he's a player, huh? Poor Paula... Wrap it up, fellas. Let's get his info."

Square

[LOVE] can be oh so [BEAUTIFUL] is just another "little" [LIE] to yourself or tell the [TRUTH] doesn't always come with [LOVE]...

Bigger

Jumping off a cliff called Chance
into a sea of love.
The distance never seems so far
until there's no one there to catch you.

Fire

Rising temperature.
The sweet smell of pine fills my head.
Dancing with the flames, kicking up the sands of time.
Hold my hand; we'll disappear.
On this perfect night belonging to the goddess of fire.

Rain

Jewels falling from the sky.
Some people think it's sad, but I find it comforting.
It feels so cold but still warms my heart.

WordChallenge2-Distrain

They’re waiting to distrain me
I honestly can’t wait
I’ll show them what they’ve made of me
My thoughts are drenched in hate
Dreaming of a homicide
I need to get away
I’ll show them what a sin it is
To take my love away

WordChallenge1-Gormandize

The Beasts are feeding.
My eyes frozen in terror
as they gormandize
on my beliefs.
My hopes and dreams.
My everything.
I lay a carcass
of my former
happy
self.

Nothing but Goodbye

You taught me not to live in a fantasy.
You taught me nothing lasts forever.
You taught me perfection is a dream out of reach.
And yet, you told me nothing.
Nothing but goodbye.

Breathing Nightmare

~If you ripped your heart out
I'd rip my heart out too
I'd sew our veins together
Let my blood flow into you
~Locked in an eternal embrace
Never to be face to face
For sorrow would wash over me
My helpless mind shall come undone
~I won't let you go alone
So promise me you'll stay
I'll pull you from the darkness
Of society's decay
~When you feel like drowning
Send your sorrows here
Locked in my box of worries
And fill the lock with tears
~Watch the metals rusting
Hear the demons scream
Toss them in the ocean
Forget them like a dream
~Now run away with me

R A G E is the new Laughter

Here I am.
Back to where I never wanted to be.
Helpless and crying.
What’s in a name? A date? An image?
Words upon words becoming the chains that hold me down.
Tighter... I want more.
You can’t break what’s already broken.
My heart lay in pieces.
Let the shards pierce through your veins.
Injecting you with my new poison.
R A G E

Thank you, God...

She slept all day
She’ll sleep all night
In her cotton coffin
Wrapped real tight

As the seasons go
And her friends move on
She’ll sleep to a morbid
Suicide song~♪